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21 August 2009 @ 03:16 pm
Fic: Salvation is a Four Letter Word  
Title: Salvation is a Four Letter Word 12/14
Author: isolde13
Rating: R
Pairing: Kris/Adam
Summary: That very last thing on Kris' mind that day was purchasing a new slave. And then he set eyes on Adam. And everything changed.
Warnings/Notes: Oh, we are coming to the end! How exciting! Two more chapters to go! Sorry about the short chapter. Warnings: slavery, mention of non-con, some violence. Evil!Danny Gokey.

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At some point during the night, exhaustion won out over anxiety and Kris fell asleep.

He woke hours later to find daylight flooding the room and a pair of familiar blue eyes gazing at him, bright and intent.

He was alert in an instant, muscles locking to sit up, but settled back when he saw that Adam was smiling.

“Hey,” he said.

“Hey.”

He ran a hand over Adam’s shoulder, relishing the softness, the fact that this intimate gesture was now allowed. “How long have you been awake?”

Adam shrugged, the hand tucked under his chin making him appear innocent and angelic. “A little while. Half an hour maybe. Not sure.”

“And you’ve been watching me this whole time?”

“Not the whole time, but mostly. You’re cute when you sleep.”

“Yeah?”

“Uh huh. You look like you’re five.”

Kris laughed. “Nice.”

Adam’s answering grin held a touch of crooked slyness. “I meant that in the best possible way.”

“Right,” he said. Stilling laughing, he rolled his eyes as he felt the morning call of nature. “I need the bathroom. Promise me you won’t run away.”

“I promise I’ll be right here.”

Once inside, he didn’t hurry. He knew there was a 50/50 chance that Adam might not be there when he went back. He also knew that it wouldn’t matter in the end. That if he had to find Adam and talk him down, step away for a while, he would do it, gladly, because in the end, things would be all right.

When finished, he opened the adjoining door to the bedroom and stepped out. And even though he thought he had mentally prepared himself for any eventuality, he found himself sighing with relief at seeing that Adam was still there. And Adam, tangled up in the sheets of his bed, black hair mussed against the pillows, was nothing short of a vision. Kris stilled, giving himself a moment to drink in the sight, until it literally became too much, until Adam’s beauty tore at his heart, causing it to ache.

He ran a hand over his chest before sliding back into bed and propping himself up on one elbow. He noted the way that Adam was watching him. There was no trace of fear in his countenance, just a steady, expectant calm.

Kris understood what that meant - it was time to have the conversation that they’d started last night, the one that Adam had forestalled.

“You’re not freaking out,” Kris said. It was both statement and question.

“No,” Adam said simply, promptly. Then he smiled, looking sheepish. “Maybe a little. But I’m controlling it well, I think.”

“Well, you’re here and not making angry breakfast. I think that’s a good sign.”

“Yeah, well . . . I figured this time, breakfast can wait.”

Kris traced the lines of Adam’s face with his thumb, recalling the spill of tears, now long dry. “Tell me why you were crying?”

Turning over onto his back, Adam sighed. “I was hoping you’d forget about that.”

“Not a chance.”

Adam stared straight up at the ceiling, brow creased as if mulling over the words and how to present them. “I guess I was just a little overwhelmed,” he finally said. “I’ve never . . . ” he paused, issuing another soft sigh. “I’ve never felt anything like that before.”

“Oh.” It wasn’t much in the way of a response, but as confused as he was by Adam’s answer, it was all he could come up with.

Adam, sensing his confusion, turned back over to face him. And where before his voice had been quiet and hesitant, now it nearly burned with intensity.

“Sex with my past owners was always just for them. It was meant to fulfill whatever little fantasy they wanted to fulfill. I didn’t matter at all. I was always just a warm body, not a human being. Never a person.”

“Those are the only times you’ve ever . . . ?”

“There were other times, with other slaves. But it was always in the dark, quick and dirty. Stress release. Nothing more than that.”

Kris listened, trying to take it all in. It was rare that Adam ever talked about himself or his past. Moments like this, unguarded and honest, were special enough that Kris always paid attention, drinking in every word as if he could commit each to memory.

“You know how there are some things that you hear about,” Adam continued, “things you just wish so badly that you could experience and understand? And you’d give anything to, anything at all, but you know that you probably never will?”

Kris nodded to show that he understood, because hadn’t he felt that way about Adam? “Yeah. I do know.”

“Yeah. That was last night, with you. And it was just a little . . . ”

“Overwhelming,” Kris said, finishing for him.

“Overwhelming.” Then Adam smiled. “But in a good way. In a really good way.”

Kris lifted Adam’s hand, interlacing their fingers, marveling at how well they fit together. “Thank you.” And then he lifted their joined hands to his mouth, settling a light kiss against Adam’s wrist.

Adam’s eyes grew seemed to grow larger, darker. “For what?”

“For trusting me. For letting me see you. For last night. For coming into my life. For everything. Just . . . for everything.”

Adam shook his head. “No. You have it all wrong. I should be thanking you.”

“No.”

“But I never do, do I?” Adam’s hand tightened in Kris’, grip just on the verge of painful. He began to speak faster, growing breathless. “I never say it. I never show it.”

“Hey, whoa. Stop. It’s ok. I don’t need you to thank me. That’s not the point. That’s never been the point.”

“Then what is?”

Kris pulled Adam closer with a tug. “This.” Then he wrapped his arms around the larger man, effectively ending the conversation with long, careful kiss.

Afterward, they lay together for as long as they could, enjoying the silence and stillness of the morning until the ringing of the alarm clock mercilessly ended it.

Kris sighed, stirred. “I have to go.”

“I know,” Adam said. “Work beckons.”

“Yeah, something always does.”

They both stood, each on their respective sides of the bed. As Kris watched, Adam bent down, picked up the slave collar from the floor and placed it around his neck. He watched as Adam fumbled with it, fingers not quite able to secure it into place.

Kris walked to stand behind him and placed his hands on the collar, stilling Adam. “Here.”

He was quick and efficient, and within a few seconds Adam turned around, collar in place.

They stood very close, close enough that Kris was forced to tilt his head back to look at Adam. “You don’t know how much I wish . . . ” he began.

Adam shook his head, his smile full of sweetness and sorrow. “I know, sir. I know.” And then Adam was kissing him, merely a ghost of a touch, before walking past him and out the door.
 
 
 
antici...pationonlyeffy on August 21st, 2009 10:30 pm (UTC)
UPDATE! OMG, BRB READING! <3
antici...pationonlyeffy on August 21st, 2009 10:38 pm (UTC)
That was beautiful. Far too short, but only because i'm greedy.

You have such a gift; i truly hope you know how wonderful this story is. Do you have plans for any future kradam stories?

12/14? I only just noticed that - as much as I want to see what you have in store I'll be so sad when it's over.

so much love. x
(no subject) - isolde13 on August 25th, 2009 04:12 am (UTC) (Expand)
gilesmic on August 21st, 2009 10:49 pm (UTC)
Read. Enjoyed. Waiting for more.
Isoldeisolde13 on August 25th, 2009 04:12 am (UTC)
Thank you.
lilianblakelilianblake on August 21st, 2009 11:07 pm (UTC)
That was amazing! I love this AU.
Isoldeisolde13 on August 25th, 2009 04:12 am (UTC)
Thank you!
Felicia: sexytinhatanathema64 on August 21st, 2009 11:22 pm (UTC)
I'm horrible because I never seem to get around to commenting on this, so I apologize for that. But I really do love this story a lot.

And this chapter was just so sweet, I'm still awwing. The only problem was it was too short. <3
Isoldeisolde13 on August 25th, 2009 04:14 am (UTC)
That's cool. Better late than never, believe me.

And thanks for the comment - I know it was short, but the next one will be way longer.
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Isoldeisolde13 on August 25th, 2009 04:14 am (UTC)
Thank you!
LOVEadammlambert3 on August 21st, 2009 11:31 pm (UTC)
Aww! Great chapter!
Isoldeisolde13 on August 25th, 2009 04:14 am (UTC)
Thank you!
snugglebuneesnugglebunee on August 22nd, 2009 12:04 am (UTC)
I was excited to see you had updated. This is one of my favorite fics, and the only one that I have read more than once. I love your story! I'm looking forward to your final two chapters, but I am sad that your story is coming to an end. It's just SO good! =)
Isoldeisolde13 on August 25th, 2009 04:16 am (UTC)
Thank you - what a sweet compliment. I'm pretty sad about it too. Though, at the same time I'll be relieved.
Isabel ~ El único: Adam Lambert: BubbleTweet: Start Twatin'chavelaprincess on August 22nd, 2009 12:22 am (UTC)
OH GAWD! This is so awesome.
I was just thinking about this story the other day, I missed two other chapters! ACK!
LOL!
But thank goodness I checked my filter tonight. I LOVE THIS STORY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can not wait for more.
Isoldeisolde13 on August 25th, 2009 04:16 am (UTC)
Glad you caught up and...thank you for the comment!
amberwintersamberwinters on August 22nd, 2009 01:05 am (UTC)
Is it Christmas? I never expected an update so soon and I am soooo happy. I haven't even read it yet but will comment after. I treat your writings like a fine wine. I have to read it once for the events and then go back and read it a few times to get all the nuances. Its just that good. Also, I am still hoping for the links to your other fics. Regardless of the fandom/characters I know they will be good!
Isoldeisolde13 on August 25th, 2009 04:18 am (UTC)
Oh, links!

Ok, I never tagged them which I know is bad. But there all in my journal, basically. You just have to scroll through to find them.

I always link to back chapters, so you should be able to read the whole thing. But let me know if that doesn't help, and I'll see what I can do.
camochick04camochick04 on August 22nd, 2009 01:27 am (UTC)
Absolutely wonderful! I wish this story wasn't ending, but I hope you write more stories after this one. Anything where Kris saves Adam would be awesome. I love strong Kris and vulnerable Adam...this story is outstanding! I can't wait for the next chapter!
Isoldeisolde13 on August 25th, 2009 04:19 am (UTC)
Thank you! I've definitely got something else in mind, but I was kindof thinking about turning the tables. Another AU. Adam saves Kris this time. I'm feeling a lot of love for the munchkin lately and I always hurt the ones I love so...

We'll see.
b_o_w_a: Forever and Alwaysb_o_w_a on August 22nd, 2009 01:27 am (UTC)
Oh, pure bliss! =) Okey dokey, let's see here. Yeah, this chapter was pretty much pure bliss. I'm not gonna go into the conversation, that was perfect. What really gets me is the end. With the collar back on, Adam refers to Kris as Sir again, he realizes the difference between Kris and Sir, that only they are supposed to know about it, and I can guess that they will never kiss or anything like that in public. They know the lines, and how not to cross them. Not sure if I like (I'm a romantic...and a total angst person. How does that work?), but I know that it's true, and that unless Kris does something about it, it's gonna stay that way. Oh, and just before that, where Adam is almost starting to freak out, that's sweet. He knows that he's not the best slave, the best friend, the best roommate (? lack of better term?), and he feels bad about it, but then there's Kris, who's telling him, that hey, it's okay, I don't expect anything from you, and it's the sweetest thing ever.
So, I'm still getting a different vibe, but it works really well with this chapter, so I don't really care! =) This is great, I can't wait for the next two parts!

PS, you're still amazing, and you still rock my world! =)
Isoldeisolde13 on August 25th, 2009 04:20 am (UTC)
Thanks, honey!

Well, there's gonna be more angst in the next chapter, so that should work for you. lol

It's about half-way done, so look for it soon.
jashelle1: kradamjashelle1 on August 22nd, 2009 01:50 am (UTC)
YES! I was just hoping that you would update. My first thought when I saw this update was 'holy mother of-' :) I was excited. And not disappointed! This was really nice and sweet. And I feel like they had real progression and growth in their relationship. I know that there are only 2 more chapters. Is there a chance of Kris buying Adam's freedom and them continuing to live together but as a couple? And Kris buying Allison's too and sending her to school? *puppy dog face* Don't give anything away though! But I DO hope that there is a happy ending. And a sequel. Ha. Thanks!
Jas
Isoldeisolde13 on August 25th, 2009 04:21 am (UTC)
Hm...buying Adam's freedom??? Maybe. Perhaps.

lol. I don't want to give it away. Let's just say I believe in happy endings after so much suffering.

Don't think I can do a sequel though. I need a break from these characters. But thank you so much for the comments!
euroshrimpeuroshrimp on August 22nd, 2009 01:51 am (UTC)
My heart skipped a beat when I saw that you had posted! I'm leaving on vacation tomorrow and I will accept this as my farewell gift ;)

So...12 of 14?!?! Ugh...How sad that makes me! I want this to go on for years...I'm keeping fingers crossed that parts 13 and 14 are LOOOOOOOONG :)

Thanks for another amazing chapter...now off to re-read more slowly to savor every word!
Isoldeisolde13 on August 25th, 2009 04:00 am (UTC)
Thank you! And I hope you have a wonderful time!

Hopefully number 13 will be here when you get back.
sleepybeessleepybees on August 22nd, 2009 02:01 am (UTC)
Great!
I am so caught up in this story! I can't wait for the next part. I have so many hopes and dreams for them!
Isoldeisolde13 on August 25th, 2009 04:01 am (UTC)
Re: Great!
Thank you! I know what you mean - I want them to be happy after all I've put them through.
doveslanddovesland on August 22nd, 2009 02:20 am (UTC)
Darlin, my love my muse my goodness my GOD....this update pulled me from my sookie stackhouse book, ( I started them on last Friday and am on book 7 so Ive been pretty obsessed ) and brought me such tender joy that....OMG BB you are my queen and I bow to you and your powers of fictional creativity.....

ahhhhhhhh Isold fic....now I can sleep perchance to dream...............
Isoldeisolde13 on August 25th, 2009 04:00 am (UTC)
Lol. I love you. You are too sweet.

Well, enjoy your Sookie while I work on the next one, although I promise it won't be long...
amberwintersamberwinters on August 22nd, 2009 02:25 am (UTC)
Read it and re-read it. Again I am struck by how simply and effectively you write. Such well chosen words and so emotive. Love it. I am sad that this fic will end :(
Isoldeisolde13 on August 25th, 2009 03:58 am (UTC)
Thank you! Loved your comment - it means a lot to me.

As for the fic ending - I'll be both sad and relieved. lol.
glitteronblackglitteronblack on August 22nd, 2009 07:19 am (UTC)
Breathtaking. I always wait until everyone's in bed and the house is quiet to read each new installment to this story. Your words make me really feel each scene and I want to be able to fully experience it - go into that space and not be disturbed. I'm sad it will be ending soon, but I know I'll savor these last couple of chapters. Can't wait!
Isoldeisolde13 on August 25th, 2009 03:59 am (UTC)
Thank you! That comment totally made my day - that you're invested enough to give it your full attention like that.

I'll try to get the next chapter up real soon. Definitely won't be as long a wait as other times.
The pen is the tongue of the mind.mollywobbles867 on August 22nd, 2009 07:33 am (UTC)
omg omg omg Yay! This was so lovely and I can't wait for the next chapter! Squeeee!
Isoldeisolde13 on August 25th, 2009 03:57 am (UTC)
Thank you! Next chapter's coming really nicely.
Shannenaltaigo on August 22nd, 2009 09:15 am (UTC)
0_0
Oh my god? Everytime I think about this fic and miss it, a new update comes.
I shall think about it everyday then 8DDDDD
Isoldeisolde13 on August 25th, 2009 03:57 am (UTC)
Re: 0_0
Think hard - I need the motivation. lol.
freckles_slaymefreckles_slayme on August 22nd, 2009 11:02 am (UTC)
I just read this from the beginning and ... wow. It's 4 in the morning here now but I couldn't help myself. After chapter three or so I just made another cup of tea and stopped trying. I can see why everyone is always talking about this story. It's beautifully done.

Now that I'm all caught up I'll have to wait for the next chapter like everyone else. I have to admit, I really hoped Adam wasn't going to put the collar back on but I totally understand why he has to at this point in the narrative. Here's hoping for more good things to come.

And now I really, really must go to bed. TGIF, well, Saturday now I guess. Good thing the day is my own. Thanks for this. It was one hell of a bedtime story.
Isoldeisolde13 on August 25th, 2009 03:56 am (UTC)
You're welcome and thank you so much for reading and commenting. I'm glad you found the story and are enjoying it. Actually, you came into it at the perfect time, the next chapter's about half-way done and then only one more...

pyrosgfpyrosgf on August 22nd, 2009 01:20 pm (UTC)
This is so beautiful and tender. Loved it.
Isoldeisolde13 on August 25th, 2009 03:56 am (UTC)
Thank you!
pensavemoony on August 22nd, 2009 02:53 pm (UTC)
TOO SHORT.
Isoldeisolde13 on August 25th, 2009 03:55 am (UTC)
lol. sorry.
musicloveraarmusicloveraar on August 23rd, 2009 06:17 am (UTC)
That was really sweet and lovely. Thanks so much
Isoldeisolde13 on August 25th, 2009 03:54 am (UTC)
Thank you, sweetie, for reading and commenting.
layogamomlayogamom on August 23rd, 2009 06:38 am (UTC)
Thank you for a new chapter. I'm so sad it will be wrapping up soon. Such a gorgeous fic--I find that I think about this story a lot!
Isoldeisolde13 on August 25th, 2009 03:54 am (UTC)
Thank you. I'm kind of sad about it too. It's been quite a project.
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Isoldeisolde13 on August 25th, 2009 03:54 am (UTC)
Thank you so much! I can't believe it either. And the next chapter is already shaping up quite nicely. *sigh* I'm gonna miss these guys.